Milf dating in Moxee To my (soon to be former) wife m4w You were my first love and the one I loved the deepest. 8 years of life together brought lots of love and joy and equal amounts of anger and resentment.

I kick myself now: If I had more courage we could have worked on our relationship two years ago and maybe saved our marriage. I've been afraid of you and your anger for so long I just gave up. I asked questions and told you I loved you because it felt like the right thing to do... but you never asked me anything, shared my interests nor expressed desire to be close with me. I felt like the doormat en route to home base; just some place you stop by long enough to wipe your feet and keep going to get some rest. I wish I told you a long time ago. I'm sorry.

I fu*k'ed up. Plain and simple. You were gone, she was there and equally lonely. I was fed up with your anger, criticism and hiding my feelings from you and I fell in love with someone else who I feel equal with. She doesn't criticize me to the point where I feel like I can't get a word out without stuttering, she loves the outdoors and shares passions I've developed on my own that you don't care about.

I know you are crushed, but I believe in my core that neither of us would acknowledge that we were way too young to be married when we were. I came to the realization when you came back home from your summer trip that nothing would change between us and that we would continue to interact with vindictiveness and manipulation. The trip abroad was the final straw: I realized that whatever I cared about would never really matter to you and I would either 1. Die or 2. Change my situation. I didn't intend to ruin our marriage, but once it happend I realized that I had to stop trying to fit into a life I could not fit into and come to terms with the person I am.

I care about you deeply and I want you to be happy in life. In light of the circumstances I know that the prior sentence looks trite and selfish, but I really do mean it. Even if I don't want kids, I want you to start the most beautiful family with a husband/partner/whatever who can give you the open-honest love and support I was unable to give. I would have had children with you because it was the 'right thing to do' instead of doing it because I wanted to have children.

I'm sorry I lied to you: I feel like I've wasted your time and confirmed your worst fears. You are a truly talented, remarkable and (sometimes), kind person, but I was unable to live in your shadow anymore and neither of us was progressing emotionally. I'm sorry about the police too: you texted that you wanted to kill yourself and I wasn't sure how else to react. I didn't ask for the police to send someone, just for them to you... not that it matters now anyways.

We have a lot of history together. I hope, someday, that we will be able to share that history as friends.

Best to you,

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